The MRI of April 23'09

Thursday went very well. The MRI machine was much narrower than usual with the tube almost touching my nose.  Pads were placed around my head, bands were strapped around my head, and finally a helmut was snapped over my head.  To avoid getting clustophobic, I just closed my eyes and imagined myself with Jesus. I spent the next 1-1/2 hours praying and praising and thanking my Jesus for His goodness and faithfulness. The abrupt pinging noises of the MRI machine faded into the distance, the awareness of being in the MRI machine all but went away and I was able to spend some beautiful time alone with my Heavenly Father. I am so thankful that I am in His hands.

The results of the MRI will not be known for another 10 days or so.  I am so excited about what God is doing in my life!  Before I went for the MRI, I was able to pray with some wonderful women that God has placed in my life through a new ministry (The Cancer Prayer Network) that I am a part of.  A few of us spent some time in prayer and allowed Jesus to minister to me.  As we did that, I became aware of Jesus sanding down the pitted bone surrounding my eye that has become part of the tumor.  I couldn't wait to tell Neil and the kids!   Only a week ago, Neil expressed his belief that God can heal me.  I was shocked to hear him speaking this way.  It was in December, that I recall, he respectfully cautioned me to be a little more realistic and not look to God being able to heal me as an option.   As we place our trust and belief in Jesus and begin to speak life over a situation, as Neil did, I believe that God honors that.  I believe that God wants to show himself to those that do not know Him personally and so telling Neil about my vision of Jesus sanding down the bone area was confirmation of what He felt in his heart.   It has become so apparent to me that we should never question God.  His ways are so much higher and better than ours.  He is the author and finisher of my faith!  As I have felt and known all along, Jesus is doing a work in me for His honor and glory.   His love for all of us is soooooooooo great!  He wants nothing but the very best for all of us.   What a priviledge it is to serve Him!

                        Bless the Lord, O my soul;

                        and all that is within me, bless His holy name!

                        Bless the Lord, O my soul;

                        and forget not all of His benefits -

                        Who forgives [every one of] all your iniquities,

                        Who heals [each one of] all your diseases.

                                                                     Psalm 103:1-3